Summertime Reflection

Upon reflection of this past summer, I have learnt a great deal about myself.  One thing I have learnt is that I want to be a more decisive person. For example, when asked about my future I want to be able to have a solid answer that makes sense and seems reasonable.  Currently, when asked that question I give vague answers of “I want to be a writer”, “I want to maybe write for an online magazine”, “I might possibly want to go into marketing or something”, or my all-time favourite, which always has the best reactions, “I have no idea what I want to do with my future”.  

Along with being lost in the way of my future, I barely know what to say when people ask me how my blog is going.  I was really excited to publish this blog but it’s proven to be a little harder than I thought to keep thinking of content to write about.  I want to find the write direction for my blog (hopefully my spelling pun didn’t anger anyone). It’s called Miscellaneous because I have trouble deciding on exactly what I want to write about.  I figured a name as vague as that I could keep my writing options wide open.

That is the nice thing about an online blog. It never has to stay the same.  I could change it as much as I like which may make this blog a slight enabler to my decision-making problem, but allows me to not have to put my writing into restraints.  I may decide that I want a central theme eventually and the name and mood of the blog could change.

The fact that my blog doesn’t have a central theme gives me slight anxiety because it might be harder to find that niche or specific audience who would read my posts.  It may also be a problem when I’m relying on this blog to provide a kind of stability in my life. I promised myself at least one post per week, whatever form that may be in (story, poem, or blog post), but having no central theme to stick to means I have less structure. 

Posting this blog has taught me just how much I would like to be someone who can hold themselves up and say exactly what they want and need.  It has shown me that I don’t need to be afraid to share my work and the positive feedback has given me more confidence in my writing.

Part of the reason I’m writing this down is to encourage my readers to also reflect on their summer and think about what they may want to change or keep the same about themselves.  I feel that the end summertime is a good time for this exercise since it is right before most people my age would be starting a new year at their school or university. The other reason I am writing this down is for myself.  I find that writing down my thoughts allows me to better understand and make sense of them. So, thank you for reading my thoughts.